minorrockstar

sitting on the porch
in the late afternoon
wondering
did i waste this day?

i accomplished
some things
i guess

no, definitely
i got a lot done

i just took steps
backwards
in some ways.

to be so close
to completing
this task
makes me mad
with isolation

i wonder
as i sit on my porch
in the early evening
i wonder
does she think about me
at times like this?
does she imagine it will
all be back to normal
tomorrow
the way that i do
when she's the one?

but that's not quite right

because i'm not the one today
and neither is she

god, i feel like such a big disappointment

haven't felt so disappointing
since getting caught
flipping off
kids in the park
at eight years old.

that's when you deserve
grounding.

now i just wish i could stay
grounded
long enough
to figure out what's going on.